Not So Happy Anniversary

Well, tomorrow will be one month in the hospital. The unfortunate thing is I am not sure what we have gained. Lauren had more seizures last night for Sandra, but the neurologists keep saying the EEG's are clean. I don't know. It walks like a duck.

Moppy, Janis, Susan and Denise visited this afternoon. Brought a couple of cheesesteaks. They commented on Mike, the handsome, buff, Villanova intern who is trailing our nurse. We explained to our nurse that when you are a month in the hospital, you have to make things interesting. I welcomed him to the cougar den. Thank you ladies for being there for Sandra, Lauren and me.

Lauren got a opportunity to Skype with Jessica and Langley this afternoon. Pretty cool, my first time. Lauren loved it and so did I.

Went out with the Borellis to the White Dog. Its been a long time since we frequented that strip of restaurants/bars. Hopefully it will be a long time till we do so again.

Jessica is coming home tomorrow, which means the world to Lauren, and to Sandra and me. Jessica went off to college when Lauren was 11, so I think that was "relationship interupted". Now, Jessica sees Lauren dealing with her difficulties and I am sure it strikes a chord with her. I think she feels that now is the time for her to be home. It reminds me of that segment of the Rocky and Bullwinkle show (dating myself here) when they call Peabody back from the time machine by saying "time for this one to come home". Usually, Peabody had gotten himself in trouble and needed to be rescued, this time Jessica is coming home to rescue us.

She may be coming home until she starts PA school at Emory in August. It is a sacrifice for her, she needs to work and make money. On the other hand, if she doesn't come home now to help us, when would be a more appropriate time? I know it is a blessing for us, an inconvenience for her as well as for the family she nannys for. To them, I am sorry for the inconvenience, but the core of Jessica that makes her such a good nanny to your kids is the same thing that compels her to come home at this time.

Is that the positive side of our cancer experience? Has it made us stronger people? Has it made Jessica a stronger, more sensitive person? Will this experience make Lauren a better, stronger person? I can't imagine how, I must trust it will.